I have my checkup today - it's a year since my first post treatment checkup and it's very nervewracking. I'm sure I'll be ok, but that doesn't stop the nerves and the over thinking. My brain is on over drive. This has meant I'm on over drive too - have been manically gardening over the last couple of days. It's been nice as the weather has been good and it's lovely to see the results but of course I end up collapsing in a heap because I overdo it and then get really fatigued.
An Amazon order arrived yesterday. In it was a book called Cancer Vixen. One of my lovely godmothers saw an excerpt in the Melbourne Age and sent it to me. I laughed and cried and bought the book. It's a true story about a 43 year old New Yorker who is about to get married for the first time and is dignosed with breast cancer. It's all written in cartoon format (she's a cartoonist of course) and is hilarious, sad and everything else. It's exactly right. Well worth the read.
Ok, I have to stop procrastinating and get organised to go to Pilates and the hospital.