Well the bad news is that it's cancer.The good news is it's early stages. Scans next week and then they can work out what treatment I'll need.The other good news is that I'll be at the Royal Marsden Hospital which is the best cancer and cervical cancer hospital in the country.There are many many issues to deal with, not least that I may not have children. My bad for waiting for the right man I guess.Still at least I have the right man. Many many many emotions right now. So many people I have to tell. It's weird breaking that news about yourself.

The weird thing about cancer is that until you know you have it, you think you feel ok. And then suddenly it's diagnosed because by some accident you find a lump like my friend did, or you have a check up like me. And then suddenly you realise that maybe it's the reason that you've been tired all the time, and it's not just jet lag.And the horrible thing about cancer is that the treatment is in someways the cure is worse than the disease. I know I will end up at least having surgery, and maybe radiotherapy and maybe chemo. I may even have to have a hysterectomy. Even without that the chances that I'll lose my chance of having children are high, which is hard to get my head around after 5 weeks of marriage.

And that you feel like you have this great big sign saying cancer sufferer over you with an arrow pointing down. Yet you still can't believe it's you.Cancer? That's not me. But it is. Scans on Tuesday and then I'll have some idea how much my life will change.